30.09.08

Happy one month MR TOADY.



Im simply amazed by how fate works.
& how sometimes things happen for a reason.
Sometimes, i ponder to myself why things are taken away from me.
the answer to this would be that somehow or rather, some thing good is granted in return or its just an obstacle you have to overcome just so you know that your arduous effort has paid off.

Yes thought its only our one month & 11 month [yes its confusing] i felt that somehow, things have fallen in place for us.
Just so that both of us could experience happiness and simply loving each other.
its amazing how fate brought us together.
god know's best.
and people out there, please dont be judgemental.
you are noone to judge my relationship.

Boyfieee Ridwan.
I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you
Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you
All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find
I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go






***
ahlaaaamaaaaak, people love playing hide and seek eh ?
Boo.

oh hello oh hello!

hhaaaa!
Guess what i found a webbie that can make you sound like a total english educated freakk.
www.dictionary.com
go check it out.
it makes you sound educated. [Oh ye, it suuuuure does honey]
But however, be very sure you even know how to use the words in the right context
or you will end up sounding like a.. a... we all know what!

Rahahahaxzxzxzxz.

Friday.
Met up with Boyfiee at J.e to study emaths.
Boyfiee cracking his brain on every question when i only asked to solve one.
Haaaa:D
in the night?
received a mysterious message.
Oh, so that was it?
haaaaa


Saturday.
Rev-ed up or whaaaaat ye?
Ive got tickets to the f1.
Yes it was loud. like real loud.
Greeeeat experience to round it up.
Lewis Hamilton has beee-stung lips.
I assume that feature is what you girls find seductive?
haaaaa.
to achieve lips like hamilton:
1) Be yourself
2) Slap yourself on the lips
3) Oh simply try rubbing effin' spicy chili on your lips

with such tips,
Im sure the guys around you will go
Wahhhh sexy pig seyy.







Sunday.
wait a minuteeee.
i cant seem to remember anything.
Oh studying session by the poolside.


Monday.
Exaaams? flunked yo.
Wcp with boyfieeeee.
Awesome stuff or whaaaat?
we know something you dont know.
Ehyk? haaaaaa :D

Morning!

everyone is in school studying
& here i am. at home.
Im oh so sick.
wells what a break- from the silly books.

i survived my chinese oral yesterday!
it was humorous or whaaaat?
yes for once!
i breezed through reading the passage with no stammering.
Yes i do see pigs flying
haaaaaaaaaa :D

the conversation topic was about parents, and children taking parents to court.
Inhumane i guess?
Oh wells.
What's your say?

hear me out,
A7X is coming to Singapore!
ye baby.
are you in or out?
you decide, cos i am seriously not going to give this a miss.
Wells, because i am friggin' poor i cant afford tickets to Singfest i didnt get to watch them.
Pigs i swear, do fly high.
this time i can afford to go [:
But who shall i go with?

*ponder





DATE
24 Oct 2008

Fri, 8:00PM

DURATION
Approx 2 Hrs

VENUE
The MAX Pavilion@Singapore Expo

TICKET PRICE (EXCLUDE BOOKING FEE)
Standard
S$95
S$110 - Door Sales

Buddy hasnt decided if he wants to go, xinyi says yes.
Its yes for me, whaaat about you?

Oh you are talking waaay too loud ye.
I stuck my head up in the clouds just so i cant hear you :D

heeeeheee.
wells post for today is rather short.
SCHOOL
SCHOOL
MAC
MAC
[mac was a blast, ye. those who know, will have the best laugh of the day]
MATHS
MATHS
MATHS
[laugh laugh laugh, oh yes extra lessons can be entertaining]
HOME.

All I am, All I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need I'd in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations seduce
Me
Cause I


I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to
You
If your asking do I love you this much
I do


In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day I found you
How you opened my life to a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all my heart
'Til my dieing day


I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to
You
If your asking do I love you this much
I do

this song 98degree- I do (cherish you)
is dedicated to the 3 lucky souls.
_____Ridwan MR.TOADY
_____Suyi My summer fling
_____Firdhouse TheBrother i will nver wish to lose.


**** please, do not get too emotional after reading the lyrics. Haahaa :D
awwww, sentimental or whaaaaat?

HELLO you sexfarts there!

yesyesyes.
ive been mugging.
Or which i believe flipping pages and doodling awful faces on my notes are considered mugging. is it?
why dont you tell me ye?


hmmm my exams starts next monday.
Whow. shall we start partying or whaaat?
oh, please let the pigs fly this time and let me do well.
grant me my wishes and i promise i will stop terrorizing mentally unsound teachers who seem to have vision problems.
(oh yes, my dear classmates know clearly who that silly poor victim was...)

Im gona start admitting that i miss my Bald Mr toad.
Aw maaaaan, yes my love, go ahead and blush while reading this post.
i'll admit that i miss you. Happy?
Bet you are smiling like a bird now.
haaaa, aww dont blush.
i know you cant help the fact that im totally sweet and lovable.
*** self praise [: nah, its just something i call being confident cos you know its the fact.
I wonder if Mr toad is an aunty killer or not?
Hmmmm, i ponder.
Answer my doubts baby, oh i bet those aunties are like droooling and nosebleeding when they work with you.
I AM NOT JEALOUS ALRIGHT, aunties are total rip-off, hands down.





boyfieee owes me a booboo icecream!

laugh or cry?

you decide alright.

well well well.
Nothing seems good today, or does it?

well who doesnt wish to start a day smiling?
i cracked up my morning with a bundle of laughter with reena in the sc room. God know's best the type of pervertic things we do to satisfy our morning's happiness :D

&&& so it had to end up that way.
heeeeeeeeeem.
ive got absolutely nothing to talk about today.

except im gona say this for the last time
Screeeew all cheeeeena milk products alright.
So my answer to you Singaporeans complaining like nonstop ye,
i suggest you people go suck some Boobies and consume Breastmilk.
they are indeed 100% natural.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :D


Baby eden's photos are still not with me, neither is dylan's photo.
Aw, i miss the two rascals soooo much.
well my two KNIGHT-IN-SHINNING-ARMOUR, i promise to go ice creeam and gummy bears with you two :D

Cheeena oral is this thursday.
Yes thanks alot.
saaaay what ye, i am gona flunk.
3 cheers for oral.

Barmy Oh yes.

Eoy is coming pretty fast ye.
Am like left with prolly a week or so to start studying.

Uh, ye studying.
Hello books :D

This is krap alright.
Like totally.
A week to prepare?
Silly dummies who cant set the schedule right.
May you be spared the farts you doodlehead !

Boyfiee shaved his head.
Haaa, he was about to send me the photo when his laptop restart.
Aw, while waiting for him [ & still waiting, counts fingers and toes ]
i served the webbie
www.Photofunia.com

&&&

Hello.
yesterday was wicked awesomezxzxzxzx!

i laughed alot with reena :D
we made muffins together !
sweeet or whaaat?

oh- i make greeat sweet tasty custards!

wana try ?
yes i'll stick that gooey krap all over your face.
yehahaaa :D

oh yes, partners in crime !
we threw dough at suyi.
aw, my baby was fuming mad. not with us but with the teacher :D






Boyfieee i shall take a bet that you are salivating when you see those photos!
haaa :D i cant wait till eoy is over so we can both bake cookies and go to the zoo!

i wana thank god for sparing me a day full of laughter yesterday.
I Love yesterday soo soo much :D
Not forgetting the mess Suyi created at my home.
Thanks Baby.

Boyfieee, i miss you soo much though we hangout just now :D

Hello you twerbs :D

i am effing lazy to type!
daaaang!

Friday,

ikea shopping with Monster :D
too bad we did not push carts. Aw!
Mrt ride was cracking nonsence.

Friday night,
partyyyy time ye.
went to the coffee club at clarke quay to chill out [:












im sorry bout that silly photo popping out by the side.
these silly codes are making my eyes go crossed.
So just bare with it yaw [:

wcp with baby :D

British Accent is screeaming sexxayye or whaaat?


Yes oh yes.
Mr martyn fellenda.
daaaaaaaaang hear me out ye.
thaaaat british man is really really sexy alright.
His sexy accent is a huge turn on for me ye.
but... he's married! [ saaaaaay what? who cares?]
haaa.
he taught us creative writting today.
& suyi just had to steal the limelight, getting all the attention from him.
ye, you guessed it right.
She acted blur, lost, helpless, weak.
OHMYGWAD, enough ol'ritey!

yeap. i'll admit im feeling jealous from my toes to the top of my head!

Some things just dont seem right for me these days.
Some times things come onto you just so unexpectedly.
This thing have been a hassle for me for the past few days.

girl and girl shares the most secret.
girl and girl have been best buddies always sharing problems and laughter.
girl went through relationship problems.
girl was there for her, gave her advice and cheered her on.
girl was thankful to have such a guardian angel to be by her side.
girl began to trust girl and started sharing personal things.
Relationship between the two girls became closer as time passed.
when it came down to these two girls, endless laughter and nonsense was expected.

tables turned ever so quickly.
when things changed for the worst.
girl and girl hardly talked.
girl finds it awkward to feel the same way.
everything between then seemed so blunt.
hugs turned to simple mono-syllabic answers.
laughter turned to mutual smiles.
just like any ''hi bye'' friends.

girl begin to ponder.
was this all her fault?
was she the one who wasnt good enough for her to turn to?
was this because she couldnt be the best for her friend to lean on?
girl struggles to fake a smile everytime she sees her.
girl tries to avoid eye contact
all she had in mind was to let it all go or hang on?

girl wonders if she feels the same way too
girl wonders if their friendship acutally mean a thing to her
girl wonders if she is strong enough to let it go
girl wonders if she still cares.

When i got to know you,
we started out not being close
but time led us on,
we became partners in silly pranks that made our day.
teasing each other was happiness to me
good looking soccer players we both used to go gaa gaa over
all those silly stuff we got ourself into will always stay within me

but i guess this time.
you realize you had to do something for yourself.
It would be painful for me, but i guess it all comes down to a point where..
we can no longer feel so comfortable with one another
it comes to the point whereby we would only smile to ourself if we think back on what we both did.
i'll withdraw a step back, you step ahead infront of me, my friend.
we'll take a good last look at each other.
pat our backs and smile.
you've been a great friend to me
spending time with you had been one of the happiest moments in my life
having you was a blessing
but i guess, i couldnt give you the best you expected from me as a friend
no matter what may come,
you can always always count on me if you need a shoulder to lean on
All good things come to an end

Goodbye, my friend

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right
And I'm looking for someone

Baby its you.
Yes you!
Not you, Rwan.
Its Suyi :D

thats Buddy.
she is your hot sexy ass!



haaaa is she acting cute or what?
Yeah, she'd prolly bust me straight up in my ass or crash my Cbox after reading this post. Babe, read my lips, YOU ARE SO SIZZLING HOT THOUGH YOU ARE SHORT!

did i mention? she tended to my wounded thumb with Motherly love. [AW!]
you should have seen the way she plastered my bleeding thumb.
She literally stopped the blood from flowing. yes by tightening the plaster!
daaaaang! my whole hand changed color after that.
We make sardine pie and butter-sponge cake today!
Great now that i have mastered some basic bakery skills i shall bake a cake for Fir's and Monster's birthday.

Well, bused home with Kenn today, and he popped the question about Rwan.
Hello everyone, IM ATTACHED, to my good friend who became my sexy-boyfriend named Rwan.
Yesyesyes. blabberblabberblabber. gossipgossipgossip. do the things you stereo-typical people wana do. im attached! haaaaa [:

this lazy afternoon seems lazy.
Oh so very dead.
Monster is terrorizing me on Msn [:
3 more weeks to EOY.
J-ing screeeeams Geeeekayye!

i effing miss Monster!

Do you want to know everything? Or do you prefer that you rather not know something?
Would you rather the person tell you the truth or would you rather you dig for the truth yourself?
Would you rather you hear it from others, or would you rather you see for yourself?

Sometimes, there are many things that chance upon me, but i pretend not to know, see or hear. and i think to myself, ''isnt it waay better if we choose not to know?'' but then again, the truth may hurt. *ouch

Hmm, whats your opinion?
Well, god know's why im still stuck pondering.

SCHOOL KICKS IN YO.
dreaaadful oh yes it is dreeaadful.
the holidays are up? like so fast. Kudos for slacking off like a lazy Bum not doing much this holiday.
rrr-ahahaha

i was darn sleepy this morning alrite.
& no, i wasnt BUSY last night, [jyea, i know what you sickodirtyminded idiots are thinking] hhaaaaa, im just a nerdy geeky old fart ol'rite?
effing disappointing right?
hhaaaa then dont mix with me.
i aint your- happening know-everything-a-blonde-knows kind of girl.

well Monster was suppose to wake me up at 430 to fast.
But guess what? he overslept.
Wonder what is he up to.
Well he overslept till the cow came home.

Well school was kind or um em err eee Boringg
Nothing of a hooo-haaa.
Ive yet to complete two more e-maths paper, o'level chinese mock paper and.. nothing else? or have i forgotten what else to do?

daaaaaang anyways, a-maths was super draggy today.
face the fact girl, im so totally over and done with numbers, x,y,z.
its effing jhajhidfneoeu8fnnosjeojdxzseneodmflpa.krfmeijerkeodhnrwjiof!

School's out!
wohooooo oh baby, i survived the first day back in school.
More or less in a way i did survive.
Headed to the gym and met shawn.
Oh boy, that man needs serious motivation.
Hmmm, well sometimes you got to know, its tough being a parent and at the same time its tough being a growing teenager.
But the answer to happiness is, you've got to learn to compromise yo.

Monster sent me home today, well we dropped by WCP just for awhile
y'know to chat and catch up.
& guess what?
Bee is afraid of Bees.
is that ironic or whaat?
well.. we did have a great time there.
we talked alot like alot alot alot.

But Monster had to go for his training.
Aw, i'll miss you, and take loads of care honey!



** those who knows you, know you better
those who knows me, knows me best

Dont you agree that when something is taken away from you all in a sudden, you sit and ponder ''why me?'' but have you wondered to yourself ''what do i gain out of this''?
yeah sure you go through all the pain and shit for that moment. But once all the feelings fade, you come to realize that actually god has given you so many things in return. Well, i've gone through this myself.

& i came to realize so many things.
i've realized that i become stronger everytime i face a setback.
i've come to my senses and not get blinded by many things which i thought was true.

with that, im thankful.
thankful for the people who stay true to me and see me through my problems.
Im thankful to the man up there who gave my someone so special.
Ridwan, its true we were only friends and we never did expect us to become where we are standing today. He was actually my blessing in disguise.
Nothing can express my gratitude towards him. [:

Enough of all this serious and intense sayings,
guess whaaaat people?
im stuck with my stupid holiday assignments.
ye, like who does it with the books?
naw, not me. well not for this holiday.
Buck up girl!

Anyhow,
tinaa and me manage to catch up this week, well through messages.
uh-huh, that girl is some serious guy magnet ol'rite!
in that message she mentioned about almost 5 guys.
ye, Marc, An, Ruven [ i cant remember the rest vividly though]
urgh, who cant resist her bubbly personality and charms and that oh-so-seductive dimples?
that explains the number of guys in her life.
Now, she has a super tough decision to make.
haaaa, i hope she doesnt surprise me by saying she is gona tie the knot some time this month?
i'll freak out. ye like seriously.

* picture perfect, you are the final touch

Sp.

its rockinggggg like crazy at Sp yo.
woke up very early this morning just to go to Sp for that creative percussion competition.
well i wasnt involve. My school was the main organizer and we had to be there.
Greeted everyone with my ever so cheerful GOOOOOOOOOD MORNING, so as to get away with my inpunctuality [ J-ing does know how to get away with such things ]

well i was part of the production crew [yes baby, hear it loud and clear, PRODUCTION CREW] so my job was to be the photographer with my new friend, who's name coincidentally, Ridwan.

yes, like Finally, i get to meddle with that cameraaaa. OHMYGOSH
its hot or whaaaaaat?

well i enjoyed alot today!
with the kids and the rest of the students.
But Mainly the little ones!




After which, met up with Monster, and he brought me up up and awaaay to look at the scenery. Aweeeesomezxzxz! we talked sooo much today [:
well thanks for sending me home !

i read your blog hunney,
thanks so much for coming into my life,
you will always be my friend,bestfriend and that someone special.

Fir just beeped me, that boy is some ass!
hhaaaa, well a dope ass, cmon bg do that thing you do.
those dancemoves are jus Baaaam whaaaam kickass yo!


*** Buzz LightYear and Rex the dinosaur

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

took a cab to bukit batok to meet Monster.
I took a cab cos i was running late.
But guess what when i reached, Monster wasnt there yet.
[Thanks so much for coming early ye?]

hhaaaa we walked around west mall just to kill some time before having to meet up with kelliee at the clementi mrt.
So Monster and me took a bus189 back to clementi and we waited for Kel.
She beeped me and it said '' OMG i so no balls across the road!''
haaaaa, well. Kel should have actually flashed him the middle finger.

Well to cut things short we took a bus to town.
In the bus, i was sitting between Kel and Monster.
hhaaa and Kel threatened to snip Monster with the scissors.
screeaaams '' absuuuuuuuuurbbbb''
well Kel is always Kel.
we headed to heeren to get my hyphy bag.
Yes Monster said the other one was nicer looking.
But i got the other one instead !

No doubt, Monster will look crackinggg sexaaye with that bag.
So as we walked past 77th street Kel thought that the hot-pink dog tagg was awesome.
so... well she was set to buy it.
& so she kept pondering.

we headed to Kinokuniyah to buy mummy a present. [HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY]
i bought her a book ''the power of a mother's love [ soooo sentimental]
Monster bought a book too!
aw! Guys who read books are sexy.
After which, we headed to far east plaza, Kel went to withdraw cash. Monster and me waited for her, then we walked around looking for that hot-pin dog tagg for Kel.
&&& FINALLY, ye like FINALLY she bought it!
wohooooooooooo
[standing ovation]

so we didnt know where else to go so we headed to plaza sing.
We went to get mommy a birthday card, and i bought tinaa and birthday card too!
after that we decided to take a peek at the build a bear shop.
AW! those little kids were all goin gooo goo ga ga over their new toys.

i wana be a kid, cos happiness comes to you so easily and you are always contented with what you get. As you get older you tend to see a simple thing in many different angles that causes you to get all emotional.
hmmmmm.

Monster looks like he wants to have one bear [:
Maybe i should get him one for christmas!
heeee, and one for Kel on her birthday!

on the waay home, we took bus 143.
we were all so tired i fell asleep on Monster's shoulder
and we shared our earpiece.
sweeeeeet or what?
hhaaaaaa, and kelliee was getting all emotional at the back.
we alighted and had our dinner.
well we were blabbering about how life is.
well....

im really contented with what i have now.
i have people who cares for me
i have gotten rid of people who are not needed in my life.
i have the best Brother in the world, FIRDHOUSE
i have friends who stay true.
&& i have you.

Oh BLOOPER FOR THE DAY-

Suyi burst out laughing reeeeeal loud when a man slipped infront of us.
OH that man was trying to act cool after that booboo.
we laughed.... REEEEEEEAAAAAAAL LOUD!

ol'ritey, gona go for a swim now
&& get hungry for mommy's birthday dinner tonight!
Awesome stuff yo

Rwan - My sexaayyee Monster

Raaaaaarw.

monster under my bed [:
heeeee, i woke up OH-SO-EARLY this morning.

just to realize that ive received 30 messages from Monster.
haaaaaaa what a greeat and fabulous start to my day !

wheee! so before i could stop my phone from vibrating, another message came in,
from kellieeeeee. haaaa! that woman is having some stuff in school. so im gona meet monster before meeting her [: double dates in one day.

now thats awesomexzxzxz!
Monster told me he updated his blog. so i went to check everything out.
&&&& it was.. aww. so touching. heeee!
I shall be the luckiest girl in the world.
aww, the video he made. that super long poem he wrote.
Baby, you are just so sweeet !
the more i blabber about you i bet all the girls will start stalking you.
& guess what? i just realized that monster aspires to be part of the pussycat dolls?
hhaaaaa, i shall not laugh.

aheem! whats with that song honey?
& the most embarrasing part is that i realized that its ''i wana be in groupies'' and not '' i wana have boobies''

OH j-ing makes a booboo!
laugh all you want !

im gona meeet monster later.




thats my monster, thanks baby, for everything you do. ILY.
i shall be heading to town after meeting him and kellie.
&&& im gona
look for mummy a birthday present
look for a HUGE birthday card for tinaa
look for a sexayye navel stud
look for a THANK-YOU card for Monster & Fir
buy my hyphy bag
and have

ICE CREEEEEAAAAAM with gummybears!




a wonderful art piece drawn by shawn
Oh, he does have awesome drawing skills.



**** let it be a reality and not just a dream
yes baby, its real, and its not a dream.

toddles! seeya hunney [:

Gooood Morning Baby and Fir!

hhaaaa, well Monster is still asleep and fir just beeped me.
Oh wait a minute he popped out on my screen.

well last night was awesomexzxzxzxz!
went to holland v with my parents and sisters.
we had our dinner at the hawker centre and guess what?

two bimbo-tic girls sat beside our table.
hhaaaa! their conversation was extremely entertaining. they blabbered about how to ged over a break up. how funny!

girl 1 said: '' i dont know leh, the last time i broke up with my ex. i just keep eating lorh''
girl 2 said: '' to prevent myself from getting hurt, i just dated jimmy when i was with my bf''
girl 1 said:'' huh? jimmy? wah why you go for him sia?''
girl 2 said:'' i think i was drunk that night la''

i couldnt quite catch what else they said, wells girls these days, i wonder if they really do have something between their ears.

hhaaaa! it was uber funny and entertaining! maybe their conversation wasnt entertaining but you shouldnt have missed their actions yo.

the holidays are really pathetic.
Buddy, im so sorry i cant meet you up today. am stuck with tuition!
screeaams '' geeeeeekaaayye''
Monster, i miss poking your tummy and laughing at you. OH your million-dollar butt!
Baby have been constantly nagging at me saying that we gotta snap loads of photos together. So we shall go do grocery shopping, go to the zoo say ''hi'' to your friends and go for a picnic together all after hari raya. i promise honey!

I ponder ponder and ponder what am i gona do for the rest of the day?
Buddy says he is going for another piercing, holy krapass! he thinks he looks hot with all those studs, truth is, im much more handsome than he is. Hhaaa.
& buddy, we still owe each other an ice cream treat. 3 more months from now!




by the way, i think you are a sissy rugby player with a bitchy touchdown,
im having the last laugh. HAHAHA!

Baby, ily, wake up wake up, the sun is shining up your buttcheeks!