When was the last time you actually felt really really happy?
Was it recently?
No, i bet it wasn't.
The time i felt like the happiest person on earth was prolly the time i was still in my diapers.
The definition of happiness changes as you age. True? Well, true enough for me.
Just think back, when you were just a little kid, receiving candies could most probably make you day and leave you smiling throughout the day. Having a game of hide and seek with you parents is like as if you are in wonderland.

But as you grow older, your definition of happiness changes. You are getting harder to please. If i were to give you a candy, you would most probably scoff and throw it back into my face. Spending time with parents would be a chore. Agree?
Well, right now. I am no longer a happy kid.
Oh yes, anyone and everyone can go on smiling but noone has ever showed their true emotions. No.
To be honest, i have not been feeling alright at all. And i am seriously very very tired, parents, family, and all you people. Don't i deserve a break?

Next year is my major year. O's. I know what i want and i am focused and driven. So it would simply mean books books and more books. Say what you want, i can't be bothered to budge. No one can feel like what i feel right now.
Ridwan Husbie,
Thanks for everything that you have done for me. Making me smile every single day, being there for me when i really needed someone. I never knew someone like me would deserve a wonderful guy like you. This time, i am really really drained out from everything around me. All i need from this relationship is patience. Even if it takes months or even years, I'm utterly sorry. This isn't your fault. But mine, i just need time to clear everything and i would be the same J-ing you used to know and as promised i stay true to you.


Sorry People..


Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all.

* if i had a wish, i wished i could still be a kid.